Monday, September 05, 2005
skipped sch today. yes although its the holidays but i still have lessons. woke up today having a splitting a headache. its so typical of me to have a headache that caused me not able to do anything, except to do the things i like. yup, im evil and have headaches whenever i like. but, please do not suspect me. i really had a headache today, enough said. but its not enough to stop me from feeling guilty. feeling guilty that i didn't turned up for my lit group discussion and forgetting to let them know. im sorry guys. feeling guilty that i just remember that i had missed not only one class but two classes today. im like so dead. feeling guilty that my headache came from sleeping at one yesterday night watching the hk serial. its stupid for the tv station to put my fave show on such a late time.
yesterday had a fun time in church. supposed to have open sunday games but becuz it was raining, we got to see the dvd of united live, "Look To You". super cool. its was really great to see so many youths to worship HIM and also to rededicate their lives to HIM. they also played my fave song in the album, "All For Love". when the song was playing, i was singing and crying becuz i had forgotten to worship HIM in my busy times. i guess Sam really had slapped me hard in the face when he mentioned that it was one thing to sing the songs and walked away without a life change, but its another thing to worship in
SPIRIT and
TRUTH. but also in our livestyles. have i really live out in a way that other ppl can see God in me? i dun know.
i remembered the day that i skipped maths lecture to supposedly do my lit hw. in the end, i ended up writing about my feelings and thoughts. i was listening to kun quan's mp3 player. listening to UNITED songs. i wrote about how man were created to have the desire to worship God, to let go of every single thing to worship HIM. and yet man just chose to ignore that desire. in the first two lines of "Always", its says
"Did you rise the sun for me? Or paint a million stars that i might know your majesty?" it says so much to me. The Father has placed so many wonders around us so that we might know His majesty and to worship HIM. and yet we chose to ignore it. even though in the end, i got caught, got a green form and have to do cwo (water the plants), i still felt that it was worth it. i felt so much better after writing that and i felt that God was telling me to rest in HIM (but that does not mean that i wan to get another green form)
Thought of the day:
"All for love a Saviour prayed Abba Father have Your way. Though they know not what they do,let the Cross draw man to You" All For Love by Hillsongs United
words written on the fallen leaf
2:15 PM
