Thursday, January 04, 2007
As you grow one year older, you become more cynical about the friendships that you have. You begin to suspect the motives and the agenda of every little actions done by even your closest friends. I really long to go back to the days when I was naive and believed that everybody was genuinely nice to me.
People are never what they appeared to be. I've always thought that I was very close friends with this group of friends and that they were my only friends in that place. But I'm beginning to feel that they have never treated me as a friend. Still I've always strive to be friendly to them, joking and doing things together, but it has been taking a toll on me these days.
I'm not sad or anything but I'm just tired and have reached the level called "heck care". If this friendships are really what I think it is, then I think it's better to leave them alone.
words written on the fallen leaf
12:23 AM