Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I'm in a kinda bad mood today because there was NO EXTREME MAKEOVER: HOME EDITION TODAY! Instead it was replaced by Beauty And The Geek and some Martin Yen cooking show. *glares at Mediacorp*
And somehow I just can't download the blogskin that caught my eye. Yes, you must be wondering "Hmm, What is Ch'ng Yi doing finding a new blogskin? Doesn't she realize that nobody is reading her blog anymore?"
Yesterday night I had a very weird dream. I dream that I was supposed to meet my friends for lunch. While I was waiting for them at the appointed time and venue, one by one called me or msged me saying that something cropped up, they had an emergency and therefore they are unable to meet up with me. Although I was upset, there wasn't anything I could do about it, is there? So I decided to not waste this day since I'm already out and walked around.
As I was walking around, I met the friends who was supposed to meet me and there they were with other friends. I knew what was going on because they had a guilty expression on their face. Just as I was going to throw a chair at them, I woke up. Woah, what a great time to wake up *rolls eyes*
The worst things is not that I wanted to throw a chair at them (that was like the best thing) but it feels so real. I can imagine it happening in real life. And that makes me so paronoid once again. And insecure about the friendships I have now. How do I know that my friends will not treat me like what happened in the dream?
Oh Lord, please take away all my insecurities.
words written on the fallen leaf
2:26 PM
